Grief Group

JB said we handle extreme stress differently in our bodies and usually the weakest part gets weaker, with me - my teeth and gums. Paul his heart. When I gave away his tissues, they said he was like a teenager.

If we dealt with stress equally in all are organs, they would be the same when we died.

He also talked about pastoral care in the 20s and the guy who wrote the book on the nervous breakdown saying we have to talk to the mind as if it was real, imagining monsters and then work inside that to get rid of the monsters.

He said we are what we tell ourselves our name is John and then what is our name beloved Isaiah and he was quoting Tennyson and love and death.

I need to get into poetry it was so helpful, he gave me the name of the book he talked about because I brought up mantra repeat to myself the poetry.

I really like Mitte and Betsy Gretchen smart too, and I said I was surprised how I missed the group and I was surprised how I missed Paul touching me.Holding me, making me feel safe. Even in a nuclear explosion, I would be safe with him.

John told us of a story where a women wanted to be in the arms of Jesus. So John Boyle sung to her an old gospel tune. I laughed. But the idea is my situation makes me feel vulnerable like a young girl who wants to be in her husband's arms. My savior protector is gone. So now I am struggling with the deepest loss alone, when I need my husband, pal, and lover.